I have no idea what to do today

I have no idea what to do today…Really, I don’t. Not a frigg’n clue. I’ve got all the intensity of an Ironman Triathlete, and the vision of a near sighted librarian. I’m up bright and early, I’m dressed for either running or biking (thank goodness the clothes don’t differ much) but I don’t know what to do. It wasn’t always like this, and it certainly wasn’t planned to be like this. It all hit me last night while I was filling out my information to attend the Diabetes Training Camp this June in Chicago.

Several months back I had a plan (emphasis on the had part). I’m a smart guy, I’ve got a masters in exercise phys, a marathon coach, and I’m a certified athletic freak; I know lots and lots (too much if you ask my wife) about training. And after taking a month layoff from the New York marathon, I had sat myself down for weeks with the intensity you see in a 4 year old trying to stay in the lines of her coloring book. At the end, I had a training plan that would make the pros weak in the knees.

But that was months ago. Since then I’ve gotten a new job, relocated, attempted to sell and buy a house (both still in the works) and made the 7 hour drive home and back to try and maintain a marriage (yea, yea, yea - If you read my blog you know that already). The result of all this is a training plan, (to put it with a ‘PG’ spin) that has gone to pieces. I’m training, but not methodically. I just get up and run, or get up and bike, (or not at all).

I’ve never been in this situation before. My training has always been specific, always with a goal. Even if it is just to recover from a hard race, there’s always another in the back of my mind. Now I have a goal and my training is so haphazard I don’t know what to do.

I get like this with my diabetes sometimes too, all the knowledge and don’t know where to go with it. Anyone else? It makes it just as frustrating to have knowledge and not know where to go with it. Sometimes the best thing is to take a deep breath to take it all in, refocus, and re-evaluate where to go from here. I can’t make up for lost time, I can only move forward.

So what am I going to do today? You’re guess is as good as mine. I’ll write tomorrow and let you know.